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Post by IlliterateKoi on Mon May 22, 2017 4:05 pm

Old thread was almost full, so here's a brand new pit for all those brain thingies.

@thread- I should do something productive...so lazy thougghhh.
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Post by Break String SpinElf on Mon May 22, 2017 4:57 pm

Hey, that's me on the first page! leek Hello me!
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Post by Luu Sky Sapphire on Mon May 22, 2017 10:56 pm

After 7 years, we're on the 16th random thoughts thread! *A* OH, HOW TIME PASSES LIKE GASSES~ Time to plug that hole! Natsuki Kuga leek

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Post by franticfranz on Tue May 23, 2017 9:38 am

When all you can do is just stare.
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Post by Lerena on Tue May 23, 2017 11:45 am

This is the post where I talk about the other side of my anhedonia. Yes, there is another side to it, because my brain makes no sense.

A bunch of rambling:
Even with everything I've mentioned so far, anhedonia is having an interesting effect on me. Logic dictates that it would be ruining my life, right? Well, it's having some kind of reverse effect. I'm actually less negative since getting it. While I acknowledge that anhedonia is problematic, especially if it persists, there being a positive effect from having it is truly quite bizarre. I've never read about any cases like this. Of course, considering the limited amount of information on anhedonia, maybe I am some kind of minority special case.

Anhedonia is supposed to be associated with negative thinking. Without being able to enjoy things, it seems most humans become heavily crippled and stop caring about anything. In my case, I suspect my medication could be helping me cope with it, though I have no idea which one and I can't explain what is scientifically happening to my own brain to produce this abnormal effect.

The negative thoughts don't seem to be completely gone though, which furthers my suspicion that my anhedonia is temporary. Since my negative thoughts come back when I'm upset, this means that perhaps other things are still intact as well. Given this logic, my ability to experience pleasure and enjoyment may not be completely broken down either. These things could just be temporarily suppressed for whatever reason. Another weird thing is anhedonia hasn't numbed all my emotions. Fear, anger, embarrassment, sadness, and disgust are still present and for a lot of people anhedonia numbs even these things. Additionally, I still have the ability to care about stuff. However, this only seems to be the case for things I normally care about regardless. For the things I don't normally care about, anhedonia makes it even harder to do those things.

Did I mention that I haven't been bored since February? I've said I'm bored only because I can consciously recognize the situations in which I'd normally mention that. What I'm experiencing could have interesting implications for the future of studies on anhedonia, but at this rate, I'll be dead before science can back up anhedonia being able to do any of this.

Personally, I see anhedonia as being on a spectrum. I theorize that I have mild anhedonia. The cases I have been reading about are on the severe end of anhedonia.
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Post by Break String SpinElf on Tue May 23, 2017 1:00 pm

The world is a strange place. A strange place indeed.

@ Lerena: that's certainly... odd. I think you might be onto something with your idea of an anhedonia spectrum. It's a good sign that you're still able to care. Hopefully this will go on its own or with the right combination of meds.
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Post by IlliterateKoi on Tue May 23, 2017 2:28 pm

Never thought I'd be serving an armed copper a cup of tea...or that I'd see so many of them just hanging around my workplace.
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Post by Break String SpinElf on Tue May 23, 2017 3:42 pm

Uh-oh. I've been summoned...
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Post by IlliterateKoi on Thu May 25, 2017 3:07 pm

Break String SpinElf wrote:Uh-oh. I've been summoned...

Ooohhh, someone's in troubleeeee :p

My room is like a god damn sauna x_x
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Post by Break String SpinElf on Thu May 25, 2017 5:30 pm

IlliterateKoi wrote:Ooohhh, someone's in troubleeeee :p
Someone's always in trouble. I know all about consequences but I'm allergic to letting them stop me doing stupid things..... frustrated
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Post by franticfranz on Fri May 26, 2017 11:12 am

I think I'm running out of time.
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Post by Break String SpinElf on Fri May 26, 2017 2:39 pm

I really hope I manage to find what I'm looking for next week. Then at least I'll be able to carry out my cunning plan.
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Post by Luu Sky Sapphire on Wed Jun 07, 2017 10:21 pm

franticfranz wrote:I think I'm running out of time.

Turn back the time! WORKED FOR THESE TWO...

Madoka x Homura

...SORTA! LMAO!!!!


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Post by Break String SpinElf on Fri Jun 09, 2017 5:06 pm

... erm, uh,

...

...

Sorry, it's gone.
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Post by Lerena on Fri Jun 16, 2017 5:02 pm

I find that I struggle with the action of my stories and I'm not sure how to fix that. It's a bit more complicated than this so just learning how to use more action in my stories isn't going to be very beneficial until after I've found a fix to my primary problem.

There's a bit of information missing from my mind that tells me what I lack in order to progress the plot with actions. With YGO, the plot progresses with a card game, but I keep struggling to progress the plot with any form of action. Bringing in the card games is only a temporary solution that isn't realistic in the long-term. I'm not the kind of writer that can make card games interesting. While a few games here and there won't make things dull, I think writing a bunch of card game scenes would get repetitive after a while.

Sadly, because I seem to be missing something that helps flesh out my stories a bit, I'm not able to work on a fix for the problem at the moment. Plus, even though this post is supposed to be an attempt at describing the issue, I'm not sure anyone will be able to pick up on what my problem seems to be. My description here seems to be a bit vague and non-specific. It might be difficult to tell what I'm experiencing. Still, the problem has been impacting my ability to write and it's leaving me frustrated and worried that I may have to give up on writing forever.

This isn't just a casual issue either. The problem has destroyed my writing for a good 5 years.

If I knew what the problem was, I might be able to work on it. But all I know about it is nothing ever seems to happen in my stories, because I'm stuck on how to progress the plot properly, so I wind up with a bunch of dialogue and interactions that don't seem to accomplish anything.

Maybe one day I'll have a magical breakthrough that helps me get back into writing. I'll be waiting for a long, long time though.
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Post by Break String SpinElf on Sat Jun 17, 2017 1:11 pm

Well, that was a week.

@ Lerena: have you tried e.g. experimenting with the register you use, or limiting each word to one or two syllables, and using alliteration? I don't know if that would work to get you writing action scenes but it's a chance to experiment I guess...
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Post by Lerena on Tue Jun 20, 2017 9:26 am

What happened to my personality? This is not adulthood. This is bullshit. I'll admit in some ways I've matured. Let's keep the maturity but get back the fun times and hilarious nonsense. I don't know what happened, but at some point, I lost what made me feel human and now things are even worse since I have anhedonia.
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Post by Break String SpinElf on Sat Jun 24, 2017 1:13 pm

Why am I so damned tired?
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Post by Luu Sky Sapphire on Wed Jun 28, 2017 10:43 pm

Can't believe Eternal Con is this Saturday. Never been to this convention before, and I admit, I'm only going to meet Helen Slater. Actual Mai-Multiverse gatherings are set for August and October's cons. Still, maybe it'll be worth visiting in full next year.

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Post by Lerena on Sat Jul 01, 2017 11:07 am

At this point, my biggest challenge for finding a song will end up being a prophetic dream foretelling the creation of a song that has yet to come out and I will be looking for a song that won't be out until like 2024.

In terms of songs in my head:

  • I've already had to deal with vague song lyrics that could probably come from almost anything.
  • I've already had to find obscure anime songs without being able to look up their lyrics due to not knowing enough Japanese to look it up.
  • I've already had to find an instrumental piece of music.
  • I've already had to find a song based on the melody, because I can't remember the lyrics well enough to look the song up on Google.
There may even one day be a case where I get a song in my head from a past life, another universe, another dimension, or a song that's in existence on the planet already but that I have never heard.
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Post by ShadowMikoto on Sat Jul 01, 2017 7:15 pm

Okay... well. What I am about to spew here is serious shit. So please do in kind take me seriously. <_< I know it's hard, but just try, please!

Ahem. It's about my life. You know, I'm sure we've all been down this road once or twice, and I know I am not the exception by any means. Basically my entire life is one big Fantasy Land. Like, I may as well be smoking grass or something, because my mind is already so far out of realities corners that there's not really much point other than maybe trying to do the impossible. I'm not even detailing what that impossible is because to be impossible in the first place, why even try to figure out its details, right? *Sigh*

So, basically I'm watching anime tonight. That is like immediately after playing PS4 games for like 4 hours. I'm doing an episode each right now of Shippuden, Ikkitousen (S1), Bubblegum Crisis Tokyo 2040, Sailor Moon S (S3), Ranma 1/2 (S3), and that's not even getting into the manga's I'm reading for a few. MKR (S2) and Ranma 1/2 (Volume 1).

So... it's great. I mean. I love Anime. But not when I'm ACTUALLY BECOMING AN ANIME! X_X *Face Plants*

... Is there any hope for me? Wait, I think I can answer that myself. There ISN'T! I've been down this roar so many times. Besides a lot of anime tells true stories anyway! :3 It's like Yin and Yang between Fantasy and Reality!

Sorry for the Random Thought Dump. HiME
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Post by franticfranz on Mon Jul 03, 2017 8:13 am

The what-ifs bother me all the time. >.>
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Post by Lerena on Tue Jul 04, 2017 3:40 pm

How do I even have writing issues when I regularly come out with forum posts that are like 7 paragraphs long? It's not necessarily on this forum that the 7 paragraphs come out regularly, but there will come a day where you guys get to personally witness what I am talking about. It will come on a dark, stormy night. Suddenly, I will decide, "I'm bored" and probably revive some dead threads or something.
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Post by franticfranz on Wed Jul 05, 2017 10:35 am

Quite a bad start of the month for me. There are just times when I want to cry and I look for a bit of comfort.

Oh yeah, not possible. I am alone anyway.

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Post by Lerena on Tue Jul 11, 2017 12:54 pm

That was some good cheesecake.
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